A Daily Struggle With the soul Stealer

Guilt..feelings​ of guilt are normal. Unsubstantiated, but normal. I believe all Momma's love from the deepest part of themselves...Way down deep to our souls. We do all we can and are able to do at the moment we are given. My head tells me this every day but my heart just hasn't caught up. Our hearts ache so immensely for our children that we suffer to the degree of punishing ourselves over and over for just being perfectly imperfect. Guilt is a soul sucker...Call upon your Higher Power, mine is God, and ask Him to help you forgive yourself. Forgiveness is key to our recovery process. Hard but imperative.
All my love
Collins Momma

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